Dear Future Boyfriend,
I know I am difficult at most times — stubborn, sobrang madaldal, impatient, moody, demanding and maarte. I don’t know why papa God wired me to be like this: DIFFICULT. Difficult to understand, difficult to comprehend. Maybe that’s why why you’re having a hard time finding me; and me having a hard time waiting for you.
How happy I would be if you would pop-out right now when I am at my lowest. But as good books say, “HAPPINESS COMES TO THOSE WHO WAIT.” So I’m standing still right here. Pero pwede ba mag request? Pwede bang pakibilisan mo ng konte? Please? Baka kasi pag nagkita tayo, mag-LQ tayo agad. Tagal mo kasi ee. Sabi sa GMRC nung elementary, hindi mo dapat pinagwe-wait ang girl. Pero dahil ikaw na ang LAST boyfriend ko (hopefully), fine. I’ll wait.
Do you know that everyday, I’m actually anticipating for your arrival? Excited na nga ako ee. Excited na akong ipakilala ka sa parents ko. Excited na ako magkwento sayo ng kung anu-ano — hindi naman kasi ako nauubusan nun ee. Excited na ako to answer your every call, to reply to every SMS. Walang sawaan. Kahit gano ako ka-busy, I’ll find time. Yup, sa’yo lang, no one else. Excited na ako maging consistent sa pag good morning at pag good night sa’yo everyday, pati yung freedom ko maglaboy anytime I want, I’m willing to compromise.
Excited na akong mag smile at tumawa hanggang sumakit panga ko — hindi lang yung regular tawa yun ha? I’m excited to laugh not because I find something funny but to laugh just because I am overjoyed by your mere prescence. Excited na akong sabihan ka ng ANG YABANG MO! with matching hampas. Sorry naman dahil bayolente future girlfriend mo ee.
Wait, ayoko maging too ideal, gusto ko realistic kaya excited na din ako na makita reaction mo pag may moodswing ako, pag malakas topak ko, pag nagtalo tayo. Excited na ako kung pano natin ireresolve ang problems natin — tayo lang. Walang extra, walang epal.
When that time comes, hindi ko na kailangang ipagdamot ka sa iba dahil I TRUST YOU. And not just the trust that I give to common friends. I trust you because you gave me the guarantee na I’m the one you trust most, na problems won’t be solved unless it’s only the BOTH OF US in the picture.
I’m imagining that right now, papa God is molding you to be that IMPERFECT PERSON, CUSTOM-MADE JUST FOR ME. And when the right time comes, I know He’ll reveal you under the right circumstances.
I know that there is no such thing as a smooth-sailing relationship. I’ve been devastated for so many times. I’ve risked the things that I’m not supposed to kaya naman I have my own set of fears. But by the time that we meet, I’m confident that I’ll overcome my fears because in you, I’ll find security and peace of mind. You will be that one single person whom I will tell:
” YOU ARE WORTH THE RISK.”
I’m preparing myself for that day when both our worlds will collide. I’m preparing well because I know you deserve nothing but the best, and ironically, I trust that the many imperfections that I have are included in that one loaded package I’ll give you. I’m not perfect and I will never be. But with you, everything will find and fall in its place. I know it will.
I have so much more to say but I’ll save the rest when we finally meet. I don’t know how long I would have to wait but I have great faith in you and in papa God. I know you’ll come, when I least expect it.
To my most awaited FUTURE BOYFRIEND, you may not be my first childhood sweetheart nor my first kiss and not even my first puppy love but know this:
You will be my first, final and only TRUE LOVE. 🙂
With all my love,
Your Future Girlfriend