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Im not a man hater =)

Madalas sabihin ng mga kaibigan ko na ako raw ay isang “man-hater”…hindi lang basta-bastang anti-social, pero man-hater pa. Inaamin ko na hindi ako malapit sa mga lalaki, pero hindi naman dahil sa may napakalaking galit ako sa kanila. Mangilan-ngilan lang ang masasabi kong kaibigan ko na lalaki at hindi ako nahihiyang aminin ito. HIndi ako tulad ng ibang babae na kailangang laging may kausap na lalaki para makupleto araw ko.

*Hindi ko kayang gumawa ng post na puro tagalog*

I do not comb my hair so that men would recognize me, nor do i yearn for their affection. I do not feel the need to go out of my way so that I could make new male friends. I make friends because I want to make friends, and because I share the same interests with those people. My lack of social life and consequently the absence of my love life does not make me a man-hater. I just simply do not see the point of changing myself for the sake of pleasing others and proving that I do not hate men.

Contrary to popular belief, I am not completely against the idea of falling in love. I may not be a romantic; I could care less for flowers on valentine’s day or stupid Monthsaries and crappy vampire movies, but I do not see any harm in dating men. I know I would not turn to ashes and I would not end up pregnant just by going out on dates. But I also do not sense the urgency in HAVING to have a boyfriend. So if, in your opinion, this makes me into a man-hater then so be it. I just don’t see the point in “selling out” just to please other people’s notion of me. I could care less if you think I’m a lesbian or a man-hater, I will just live my life the way I want so that I would not feel the need to blame others for the crap in my life.

One of my favorite professors once said in class “You are responsible for the shit that happens in your life” and I agree with him. Pressure is only pressure when you allow them to be.

People have their own opinions about everything, there are not only two sides to a story but multiple versions of the truth. Believe what you want, but do not force me into your stereotypes.

Three-Month Rule

I’ve never heard of the 3-Month Rule until the radio DJ’s at Magic mentioned it on air. Turns out, it came from the movie One More Chance starring John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo. It’s a rule that states you’re not supposed to date until after 3 months after your break-up.

I find this very true. Ako pa – I’m a sucker for all the shitness of love. After a break-up, it would take me a handful of stupid, embarassing, unreasonable and unbelievable acts of katangahan before I snap back to reality.

Three months is a relatively fair amount of time for healing. I’d say it worked for me. And within those 3 long months, I cut all ties with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named (except for a few necessary instances). I am firm believer of the time-and-distance-will-heal-all-wounds saying. And when I say distant, I mean DISTANT. For a few months now, I’ve turned off my contacts’ updates on Tumblr, his on Facebook, avoided familiar and memorable places – all that jazz. I didn’t want to break my concentration on my goal to be as distant as I can be. Until Tumblr decided to reset/reformat and flash me all my contacts’ recent activities – including chanchararaaaaaaan!

But that’s fine. I guess more than 3 months have passed now and guess what, I’m OK!

Ako na ang Ambisyosa

kasi ambisyosa ako….
for everyone
>ang blog na ito ay puno ng ka-ambisyosohan at pangarap lamang…

ngunit, ipinapangako ko na makukuha ko balang araw!!! hahahahahahha! un un ehh!!!!

I. Ano

-Gusto mong maging

>gusto ko maging si Invisible Girl!!! hahahahaha~!!

-Pinapantasya mong kotse

>simple lang… FERARRI!!! hahahah!!

-Pinapantasya mong gadget:

>Sony Experia X1 saka Mac G5 pede rin ung Sony Vaio na !

-Pinapantasyang gaming console:


>Nintendo DS saka Nintendo Wii

II.Sino

-Gusto mong pagurin sa kama

>si Jensen Ackles !!! nyammy!!! hahaha!

-Gusto mo mkasama habang-buhay

>si JUN MATSUMOTO!!!

-Gusto ko ma meet

MR.RIGHT ko

Hi! How are you doing? I wish you’re fine. Ako, well, I’m fine, I guess. I’m just having a lonely day again. Yeah! Life is good! Really it is! Lalo na siguro if you’re here with me. Anyways, bakit ba ang tagal mong dumating sa buhay ko? Na-traffic ka ba or something? I really want to hold you sooo tight lang tlga and I really want to tell you the words, “I Love You So Much” a million times.

My life is a “mess” Mr. Right. It is. I’ve been in loved with different persons already but still, I haven’t met anyone deserving. Ayoko naman kay Mr. Perfect. Ikaw kasi ang gusto kong makasama.

Everyday I’m very excited to wake up but I’m scared as well kasi baka hindi ka rin dumating. Iyak nalang ako ng iyak everyday. Napapagod din naman ako.
Alam mo, ang dami kong gusting ipakilala sayo. Family ko, mga friends ko Ang dami ko din gustong puntahan kasama ka. Kahit hindi sa ibang bansa, kahit nga dito lang sa Pilipinas eh. Basta ikaw kasama ko.
Ang weird ko noh? Mashado kitang iniisip, mashado kong sabik sayo. Ewan ko ba, siguro kasi, ikaw lang yung kukumpleto sakin. Kahit saan ako magpunta, ikaw inaalala ko. Gusto ko, kumain tayo together, magsaya together, umiyak together, magtawanan together, mamasyal together, magsimba together, ang dami pah!
Ang dami ko din pangarap sa ating dalawa, yung bang mag-ipon tayo together, magtayo ng house together, gusto ko yung bakod natin color white. Gusto kong umuwi sa bahay na, kahit gaano kasama ng araw ko, alam kong uuwi ako dun sa taong will make everything alright. Tapos, every night, matutulog tayo together. Gusto mo try natin magtayo ng house sa isang island? Yung tayong dalawa lang. Masyado ng exaggerated yun.

I know Mr. Right, it’s not enough na sabihin ko lang lahat ng gusto kong gawin nating dalawa, pero, tila atang matatagalan pa bago ko maramdaman ‘to dahil wala ka pah!
Nasaan ka na ba? Mashado ng maraming nangyayari sa paligid ko. ‘Di ko na makaya yung lungkot ko.. Oo, may family ako, may mga friends ako, pero iba ang magiging pagdating mo. Iku-kumpleto mo ang kulang kulang na parte ng pagkatao ko.
Mr. Right, dumating ka nah. Nahihirapan na ‘ko eh. Hindi ko gustong mag-isa.. Ayokong mag-isa.. Sana sa paghihintay kong ‘to, magiging WORTH THE WAIT ang pagdating mo.

For my Future Boyfriend…

Dear Future Boyfriend,

I know I am difficult at most times — stubborn, sobrang madaldal, impatient, moody, demanding and maarte. I don’t know why papa God wired me to be like this: DIFFICULT. Difficult to understand, difficult to comprehend. Maybe that’s why why you’re having a hard time finding me; and me having a hard time waiting for you.

How happy I would be if you would pop-out right now when I am at my lowest. But as good books say, “HAPPINESS COMES TO THOSE WHO WAIT.” So I’m standing still right here. Pero pwede ba mag request? Pwede bang pakibilisan mo ng konte? Please? Baka kasi pag nagkita tayo, mag-LQ tayo agad. Tagal mo kasi ee. Sabi sa GMRC nung elementary, hindi mo dapat pinagwe-wait ang girl. Pero dahil ikaw na ang LAST boyfriend ko (hopefully), fine. I’ll wait.

Do you know that everyday, I’m actually anticipating for your arrival? Excited na nga ako ee. Excited na akong ipakilala ka sa parents ko. Excited na ako magkwento sayo ng kung anu-ano — hindi naman kasi ako nauubusan nun ee. Excited na ako to answer your every call, to reply to every SMS. Walang sawaan. Kahit gano ako ka-busy, I’ll find time. Yup, sa’yo lang, no one else. Excited na ako maging consistent sa pag good morning at pag good night sa’yo everyday, pati yung freedom ko maglaboy anytime I want, I’m willing to compromise.

Excited na akong mag smile at tumawa hanggang sumakit panga ko — hindi lang yung regular tawa yun ha? I’m excited to laugh not because I find something funny but to laugh just because I am overjoyed by your mere prescence. Excited na akong sabihan ka ng ANG YABANG MO! with matching hampas. Sorry naman dahil bayolente future girlfriend mo ee.

Wait, ayoko maging too ideal, gusto ko realistic kaya excited na din ako na makita reaction mo pag may moodswing ako, pag malakas topak ko, pag nagtalo tayo. Excited na ako kung pano natin ireresolve ang problems natin — tayo lang. Walang extra, walang epal.

When that time comes, hindi ko na kailangang ipagdamot ka sa iba dahil I TRUST YOU. And not just the trust that I give to common friends. I trust you because you gave me the guarantee na I’m the one you trust most, na problems won’t be solved unless it’s only the BOTH OF US in the picture.

I’m imagining that right now, papa God is molding you to be that IMPERFECT PERSON, CUSTOM-MADE JUST FOR ME. And when the right time comes, I know He’ll reveal you under the right circumstances.

I know that there is no such thing as a smooth-sailing relationship. I’ve been devastated for so many times. I’ve risked the things that I’m not supposed to kaya naman I have my own set of fears. But by the time that we meet, I’m confident that I’ll overcome my fears because in you, I’ll find security and peace of mind. You will be that one single person whom I will tell:

” YOU ARE WORTH THE RISK.”

I’m preparing myself for that day when both our worlds will collide. I’m preparing well because I know you deserve nothing but the best, and ironically, I trust that the many imperfections that I have are included in that one loaded package I’ll give you. I’m not perfect and I will never be. But with you, everything will find and fall in its place. I know it will.

I have so much more to say but I’ll save the rest when we finally meet. I don’t know how long I would have to wait but I have great faith in you and in papa God. I know you’ll come, when I least expect it.

To my most awaited FUTURE BOYFRIEND, you may not be my first childhood sweetheart nor my first kiss and not even my first puppy love but know this:

You will be my first, final and only TRUE LOVE. 🙂

With all my love,

Your Future Girlfriend

FUTURE BOYFRIEND=)

Dear future boyfriend,
Taena naman, asan ka na ba?? baka naman nagkasalubong na tayo di mo lang napansin yung lukso ng dugo mo kasi kung san san ka nakatingin!
If you’re as hot as this guy, please hurry up. thanks.

Drama 101

Dear You,
I am now agreeing with you that things are better off this way. That we cannot be the closest of friends nor be the same anymore. I now agree with you that there are a lot more things to see in this world, more beautiful, more meaningful than what we had back then. But I just have to disagree with you on something. I believed and always will believe that the love we had was something worth fighting for. And if ever I’d be given that chance to go back, I’d still fight hard for our relationship. And it’s for the simple reason that what we had was real.
Now that the final chapter of our love story has been written and there’s no more reason to keep the book open, there’s just one thing that I want to tell you. I know I could tell you a million and one things and everything may or may not make sense. But there’s one thing we’ll both agree on. That I love you. I loved you since Day 1 and I still love you now. The phrase might have lost its value because I tell them to you every time, but you know what we felt and that’s what’s important.

I’m not sure if I still feel the same way now.

Mistakes

I should have been a little more careful in ranting things about you and my bitterness. I should have not shown you or anyone of how weak I am. I should have not given you even the slightest idea that I cannot go on my life without you and that I desperately need you. I should have not.

Because of my mistakes, my ego is bruised (BIG TIME) and yours isn’t. Fuck you. 🙂

Mistakes committed. Lessons learned. Discretion. I thank you. 🙂

drama anthology

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na sobrang tagal mong hintintay ang isang bagay kasi akala mo yun na ang magpapasaya sayo? Oo. Antagal kong hinintay ang mga kasagutan sa lahat ng mga tanong ko. Kasi pakiramdam ko, pag nalaman ko na ang mga bagay na hindi ko alam, sasaya na ko. Makakamove on na ko. Makakalaya na ko sa attachments ko sa’yo. HAHAHAHA at isa pang HAHAHA. Surprisingly, mali ako. At lumagapak na naman sa lupa ang mga pangarap ko. Shet, ako na talaga ang present, alive, awake at enthusiastic noong nagpaulan si Lord ng kabobohan. Ako na talaga.

Kasi, malungkot pa rin ako. Kasi nasasaktan pa rin ako. Kasi umiiyak pa rin ako. Siguro ang napala ko lang ay handa na kong magpatawad ngayon kasi marami na akong valid reasons na narinig. Pero grabe, paano ako makakapagpatawad kung sobrang sakit pa rin? Alam mo yung pakiramdam na walang kahit anong valid reason ang makapagjustify ng lahat paghihirap na nararamdaman ko? Alam mo yung pakiramdam na sobrang pinaghirapan mo yung wag umiyak, wag makipag-usap, wag malungkot? Pero isang IM mo lang, isang sabi mo lang. Andun na agad ako, handa na namang masaktan? HAHAHA.

Akala ko pag nakausap kita, mararamdaman kong patas ang mundo. Kasi akala ko nahirapan ka mag-move on, kasi akala ko mahirap ako kalimutan. Pero ngayon, I feel even more alone. Kasi kahit pala ikaw, hindi maiintindihan yung sakit na pinagdadaanan ko. Kasi hindi ka nasasaktan katulad ng sakit na nararamdaman ko. Sabi ko gusto ko okay ka. Sabi ko kontento na ko na okay ka. Sabi ko lang pala yun. Kasi ngayon pakiramdam ko andaya. Pakiramdam ko unfair. Pakiramdam ko, wala akong kwenta. Na kahit yung taong willing ako na alayan ng buong buhay ko, yung nag-iisang taong tinry ko i-please, kinalimutan lang ako. At siguro nga ang bitter ko. Diba, yun na nga eh. Tatlong buwan na bitter pa rin ako. Ano ba kong klaseng tao? Bukod sa bobo ako at bobo ako, ano pa ba? HAHAHA.

Ayoko na. Kasi, parang ngayon wala na lalo akong inaasahang makakapagsalba sa akin. Ano na? Ganito na lang ba ko forever?

When is it Love?

Because the love month is just tomorrow, it is just fitting to post a list that suits the coming month. Hope that this answers some of the questions being asked over and over by many people. If not, what can I do? It is what it is so let’s get down with the list already.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught between your chest?
– it isn’t love, it’s LIKE

You cant keep your eyes or hands off him/her?
– it isn’t love, it’s LUST

Are you proud and eager to show them off?
– it isn’t love, it’s PRIDE

Do you want them, because you know they are there?
– it isn’t love, it’s LONELINESS

Are you there because it’s what everyone wants?
– it isn’t love, it’s LOYALTY

Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand?
– it isn’t love, it’s LOW CONFIDENCE

Do you stay for their confessions of love because you don’t want to hurt them?
– it isn’t love, it’s PITY

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
– it isn’t love, it’s INFATUATION

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
– it isn’t love, it’s FRIENDSHIP

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of?
– it isn’t love, it’s a LIE

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
– it isn’t love, it’s CHARITY

Does your heart ache and break when they are sad?
– then it’s LOVE

Do you cry for their pain even when they are strong?
– then it’s LOVE

Do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
– then it’s LOVE

Do you stay because a binding, incomprehensive mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there?
– then it’s LOVE

Do you accept their faults because they are a part of who they are?
– then it’s LOVE

Are you attracted to others but stay with them faithfully without regret?
– then it’s LOVE

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?

Funny Acronyms

HOLLAND
– Hope Our Love Lasts And Never Dies

ITALY
– I Trust And Love You

LIBYA
– Love is Beautiful, You Also

FRANCE
– Friendships Remain And Never Can End

CHINA
– Come Here I Need Affection

BURMA
– Between Us, Remember Me Always

INDIA
– I Nearly Died In Adoration

KENYA
– Keep Everything Nice, Yet Arousing

CANADA
– Cute and Naughty Action that Developed into Attraction

KOREA
– Keep Optimistic Regardless of Every Adversity

EGYPT
– Everything’s Great You Pretty Thing

RUSSIA
– Romance Under the Sky and Stars is Intimate Always

MANILA
– May All Nights Inspire Love Always

BALIWAG
– Beauty And Love I Will Always Give

MALABON
– May A Lasting Affair Be Ours Now

IMUS
– I Miss U Sweetheart

PASIG
– Please Always Say I’m Gorgeous

CEBU
– Change Everything But Us

PARANAQUE
– Please Always Remain Adorable, Nice And Quiet Under Ecstacy

TONDO
– Tonight’s Our Night Dearest One

PASAY
– Pretty And Sexy Are You

YEMEN
– Yugyugan Every Morning, Every Night

MARLBORO
– Men Always Remember Love Because Of Romance Only

IRAN
– Ikaw Rin Ang Nawalan

NEPAL
– Never Ever Part As Lovers

THAILAND
– Totally Happy Always in Love And Never Dull

YAMAHA
– You Are My Angel, Happy Anniversary

it’s over

Love was never meant to be a one-way street. Darating ang panahon na magsasawa ka. Magigising ka nalang isang araw, pagod ka na umasa. Bahala ka na diyan. Kakapagod ka. Goodbye! ‘Cause you’re not actually “loving”, you’re just testing your patience. Kung hanggang saan mo kayang magtiis. Love is patient pero hanggang kailan ba dapat magtiis? Kailan mo ba dapat ipa-realize sa sarili mo na, you gave enough chance already. If things aren’t working, go! Leave. Kumbaga sa appliances, sinubukan mong ma-repair pero di na kaya. Kaya huwag nang ipilit. Diretso junk shop nalang. Love is supposed to make you happy and it’s not supposed to hurt. Otherwise, it’s not love. Akala mo lang, or worse, pinipilit mo lang. O baka nag-iilusyon ka lang.

Ako si D. nineteen. At dito nagsisimula ang aking ilusyon.

same shit everyday

Nakakasawa na mag-blog.
Hindi na tulad ng dating napakaraming makabuluhang shit na pwedeng ibato. Hindi na tulad ng dating masarap magbasa ng mga blog at datkom na malupet ang saltik ng mga salitang sinalitype.
Ngayon, puro kagaguha’t kabobohan na lang ang nilalaman. Ngayon puro what-I-fuckin’-did-today and all that shit na lang ang binibida. Ngayon puro walang kwentang shit ng kung sinumang putanginang Pontio Pilato ang itinatapon sa buladaspir.
Me, myself, and I.
Paulet ulet ulet ulet ulet ulet ulet.
Nakakabanas na mag-blog.
Kaya nga mas maige siguro kung isara ko na lang ule ang bagong crib ng lumang blog na ‘to.
Aksaya sa bandwidth. Aksaya sa effort. Aksaya sa espasyo ng fuckin’ buladaspir.
Blog self-destruct in 3-2-1…
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Joke!
Who the fuckin’ hell are you kidding?
Happy April Fools! \m/

hindi ako bitter! man-hater lang!

hindi ako bitter! man hater lang!
ala akong pakialam kung anuman sabihin nila…
panu ba naman ako di magiging man-hater?
halos lahat ng guys na na-involve saken iniiwan ako!
kya di nyo ko masisi kung maging man-hater ako!
mga mang-iiwan silang lahat!
lagi nalang nila ako iniiwan sa ere….
ayoko na sa mga lalaking mang-iiwan!
i really hate them!

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