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Im not a man hater =)

Madalas sabihin ng mga kaibigan ko na ako raw ay isang “man-hater”…hindi lang basta-bastang anti-social, pero man-hater pa. Inaamin ko na hindi ako malapit sa mga lalaki, pero hindi naman dahil sa may napakalaking galit ako sa kanila. Mangilan-ngilan lang ang masasabi kong kaibigan ko na lalaki at hindi ako nahihiyang aminin ito. HIndi ako tulad ng ibang babae na kailangang laging may kausap na lalaki para makupleto araw ko.

*Hindi ko kayang gumawa ng post na puro tagalog*

I do not comb my hair so that men would recognize me, nor do i yearn for their affection. I do not feel the need to go out of my way so that I could make new male friends. I make friends because I want to make friends, and because I share the same interests with those people. My lack of social life and consequently the absence of my love life does not make me a man-hater. I just simply do not see the point of changing myself for the sake of pleasing others and proving that I do not hate men.

Contrary to popular belief, I am not completely against the idea of falling in love. I may not be a romantic; I could care less for flowers on valentine’s day or stupid Monthsaries and crappy vampire movies, but I do not see any harm in dating men. I know I would not turn to ashes and I would not end up pregnant just by going out on dates. But I also do not sense the urgency in HAVING to have a boyfriend. So if, in your opinion, this makes me into a man-hater then so be it. I just don’t see the point in “selling out” just to please other people’s notion of me. I could care less if you think I’m a lesbian or a man-hater, I will just live my life the way I want so that I would not feel the need to blame others for the crap in my life.

One of my favorite professors once said in class “You are responsible for the shit that happens in your life” and I agree with him. Pressure is only pressure when you allow them to be.

People have their own opinions about everything, there are not only two sides to a story but multiple versions of the truth. Believe what you want, but do not force me into your stereotypes.

Three-Month Rule

I’ve never heard of the 3-Month Rule until the radio DJ’s at Magic mentioned it on air. Turns out, it came from the movie One More Chance starring John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo. It’s a rule that states you’re not supposed to date until after 3 months after your break-up.

I find this very true. Ako pa – I’m a sucker for all the shitness of love. After a break-up, it would take me a handful of stupid, embarassing, unreasonable and unbelievable acts of katangahan before I snap back to reality.

Three months is a relatively fair amount of time for healing. I’d say it worked for me. And within those 3 long months, I cut all ties with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named (except for a few necessary instances). I am firm believer of the time-and-distance-will-heal-all-wounds saying. And when I say distant, I mean DISTANT. For a few months now, I’ve turned off my contacts’ updates on Tumblr, his on Facebook, avoided familiar and memorable places – all that jazz. I didn’t want to break my concentration on my goal to be as distant as I can be. Until Tumblr decided to reset/reformat and flash me all my contacts’ recent activities – including chanchararaaaaaaan!

But that’s fine. I guess more than 3 months have passed now and guess what, I’m OK!

Ako na ang Ambisyosa

kasi ambisyosa ako….
for everyone
>ang blog na ito ay puno ng ka-ambisyosohan at pangarap lamang…

ngunit, ipinapangako ko na makukuha ko balang araw!!! hahahahahahha! un un ehh!!!!

I. Ano

-Gusto mong maging

>gusto ko maging si Invisible Girl!!! hahahahaha~!!

-Pinapantasya mong kotse

>simple lang… FERARRI!!! hahahah!!

-Pinapantasya mong gadget:

>Sony Experia X1 saka Mac G5 pede rin ung Sony Vaio na !

-Pinapantasyang gaming console:


>Nintendo DS saka Nintendo Wii

II.Sino

-Gusto mong pagurin sa kama

>si Jensen Ackles !!! nyammy!!! hahaha!

-Gusto mo mkasama habang-buhay

>si JUN MATSUMOTO!!!

-Gusto ko ma meet

MR.RIGHT ko

Hi! How are you doing? I wish you’re fine. Ako, well, I’m fine, I guess. I’m just having a lonely day again. Yeah! Life is good! Really it is! Lalo na siguro if you’re here with me. Anyways, bakit ba ang tagal mong dumating sa buhay ko? Na-traffic ka ba or something? I really want to hold you sooo tight lang tlga and I really want to tell you the words, “I Love You So Much” a million times.

My life is a “mess” Mr. Right. It is. I’ve been in loved with different persons already but still, I haven’t met anyone deserving. Ayoko naman kay Mr. Perfect. Ikaw kasi ang gusto kong makasama.

Everyday I’m very excited to wake up but I’m scared as well kasi baka hindi ka rin dumating. Iyak nalang ako ng iyak everyday. Napapagod din naman ako.
Alam mo, ang dami kong gusting ipakilala sayo. Family ko, mga friends ko Ang dami ko din gustong puntahan kasama ka. Kahit hindi sa ibang bansa, kahit nga dito lang sa Pilipinas eh. Basta ikaw kasama ko.
Ang weird ko noh? Mashado kitang iniisip, mashado kong sabik sayo. Ewan ko ba, siguro kasi, ikaw lang yung kukumpleto sakin. Kahit saan ako magpunta, ikaw inaalala ko. Gusto ko, kumain tayo together, magsaya together, umiyak together, magtawanan together, mamasyal together, magsimba together, ang dami pah!
Ang dami ko din pangarap sa ating dalawa, yung bang mag-ipon tayo together, magtayo ng house together, gusto ko yung bakod natin color white. Gusto kong umuwi sa bahay na, kahit gaano kasama ng araw ko, alam kong uuwi ako dun sa taong will make everything alright. Tapos, every night, matutulog tayo together. Gusto mo try natin magtayo ng house sa isang island? Yung tayong dalawa lang. Masyado ng exaggerated yun.

I know Mr. Right, it’s not enough na sabihin ko lang lahat ng gusto kong gawin nating dalawa, pero, tila atang matatagalan pa bago ko maramdaman ‘to dahil wala ka pah!
Nasaan ka na ba? Mashado ng maraming nangyayari sa paligid ko. ‘Di ko na makaya yung lungkot ko.. Oo, may family ako, may mga friends ako, pero iba ang magiging pagdating mo. Iku-kumpleto mo ang kulang kulang na parte ng pagkatao ko.
Mr. Right, dumating ka nah. Nahihirapan na ‘ko eh. Hindi ko gustong mag-isa.. Ayokong mag-isa.. Sana sa paghihintay kong ‘to, magiging WORTH THE WAIT ang pagdating mo.

For my Future Boyfriend…

Dear Future Boyfriend,

I know I am difficult at most times — stubborn, sobrang madaldal, impatient, moody, demanding and maarte. I don’t know why papa God wired me to be like this: DIFFICULT. Difficult to understand, difficult to comprehend. Maybe that’s why why you’re having a hard time finding me; and me having a hard time waiting for you.

How happy I would be if you would pop-out right now when I am at my lowest. But as good books say, “HAPPINESS COMES TO THOSE WHO WAIT.” So I’m standing still right here. Pero pwede ba mag request? Pwede bang pakibilisan mo ng konte? Please? Baka kasi pag nagkita tayo, mag-LQ tayo agad. Tagal mo kasi ee. Sabi sa GMRC nung elementary, hindi mo dapat pinagwe-wait ang girl. Pero dahil ikaw na ang LAST boyfriend ko (hopefully), fine. I’ll wait.

Do you know that everyday, I’m actually anticipating for your arrival? Excited na nga ako ee. Excited na akong ipakilala ka sa parents ko. Excited na ako magkwento sayo ng kung anu-ano — hindi naman kasi ako nauubusan nun ee. Excited na ako to answer your every call, to reply to every SMS. Walang sawaan. Kahit gano ako ka-busy, I’ll find time. Yup, sa’yo lang, no one else. Excited na ako maging consistent sa pag good morning at pag good night sa’yo everyday, pati yung freedom ko maglaboy anytime I want, I’m willing to compromise.

Excited na akong mag smile at tumawa hanggang sumakit panga ko — hindi lang yung regular tawa yun ha? I’m excited to laugh not because I find something funny but to laugh just because I am overjoyed by your mere prescence. Excited na akong sabihan ka ng ANG YABANG MO! with matching hampas. Sorry naman dahil bayolente future girlfriend mo ee.

Wait, ayoko maging too ideal, gusto ko realistic kaya excited na din ako na makita reaction mo pag may moodswing ako, pag malakas topak ko, pag nagtalo tayo. Excited na ako kung pano natin ireresolve ang problems natin — tayo lang. Walang extra, walang epal.

When that time comes, hindi ko na kailangang ipagdamot ka sa iba dahil I TRUST YOU. And not just the trust that I give to common friends. I trust you because you gave me the guarantee na I’m the one you trust most, na problems won’t be solved unless it’s only the BOTH OF US in the picture.

I’m imagining that right now, papa God is molding you to be that IMPERFECT PERSON, CUSTOM-MADE JUST FOR ME. And when the right time comes, I know He’ll reveal you under the right circumstances.

I know that there is no such thing as a smooth-sailing relationship. I’ve been devastated for so many times. I’ve risked the things that I’m not supposed to kaya naman I have my own set of fears. But by the time that we meet, I’m confident that I’ll overcome my fears because in you, I’ll find security and peace of mind. You will be that one single person whom I will tell:

” YOU ARE WORTH THE RISK.”

I’m preparing myself for that day when both our worlds will collide. I’m preparing well because I know you deserve nothing but the best, and ironically, I trust that the many imperfections that I have are included in that one loaded package I’ll give you. I’m not perfect and I will never be. But with you, everything will find and fall in its place. I know it will.

I have so much more to say but I’ll save the rest when we finally meet. I don’t know how long I would have to wait but I have great faith in you and in papa God. I know you’ll come, when I least expect it.

To my most awaited FUTURE BOYFRIEND, you may not be my first childhood sweetheart nor my first kiss and not even my first puppy love but know this:

You will be my first, final and only TRUE LOVE. 🙂

With all my love,

Your Future Girlfriend

FUTURE BOYFRIEND=)

Dear future boyfriend,
Taena naman, asan ka na ba?? baka naman nagkasalubong na tayo di mo lang napansin yung lukso ng dugo mo kasi kung san san ka nakatingin!
If you’re as hot as this guy, please hurry up. thanks.

Drama 101

Dear You,
I am now agreeing with you that things are better off this way. That we cannot be the closest of friends nor be the same anymore. I now agree with you that there are a lot more things to see in this world, more beautiful, more meaningful than what we had back then. But I just have to disagree with you on something. I believed and always will believe that the love we had was something worth fighting for. And if ever I’d be given that chance to go back, I’d still fight hard for our relationship. And it’s for the simple reason that what we had was real.
Now that the final chapter of our love story has been written and there’s no more reason to keep the book open, there’s just one thing that I want to tell you. I know I could tell you a million and one things and everything may or may not make sense. But there’s one thing we’ll both agree on. That I love you. I loved you since Day 1 and I still love you now. The phrase might have lost its value because I tell them to you every time, but you know what we felt and that’s what’s important.

I’m not sure if I still feel the same way now.

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